The last few weeks I've done a lot of reflecting on my work with models. I was having major inner conflict because I felt like I was starting to lose creative control over the work I was putting out, or second guessing if I was giving concepts enough thought. On top of that, I've been wondering if it's considered selling out if I'm creating things for the sole purpose of trying to work with brands or grow my following, or put work out that is trendy and I know people will like. I want to create things with meaning, and things that I'm proud of but is it possible to create a platform without doing all the other things that you don't necessarily consider to have "real meaning" or are just glorified ads? Do I just have control issues??? Is it possible to be both??? Am I absolutely crazy??? I have so many questions!!!!
Insert my friend Sarah Liddell who part-owns an awesome art shop/gallery in Allentown. She suggested the idea of having a gallery showing of my work sometime next year. I don't think she knew it, but it completely sparked something inside of me.
I want to spend my summer creating and telling a story or rather several stories to put on display. For me, photography is trying to get what's inside of me...my thoughts, feelings and ideas...out onto print or a screen. It's the best way I know how to express my emotions. I have to remember to maintain control over it at all times and not let it get away from me or venture into something that's not me so it can remain completely authentic, and that's always been something I've struggled with when shooting models. Let's be honest, it's easier to shoot things you know people will like or that are on trend or that are beautiful. Art doesn't always have to be beautiful though, and it's not how I feel inside so I want to be able to show that and let the walls down for others to see.
When I meet models that I feel can see the "real" me, I try to keep them around. I began this project with Jillian Brennan aka one of the girls that has a piece of my soul. I'm going to keep most of this project under wraps I think, but I just wanted to share with you guys a preview of what's to come....at an undisclosed date next year;). Very mysterious of me, I know.
I was fortunately able to bring my boy Joe Salvatore along for a behind the scenes look, Joe doing amazing work as always with that killer eye of his. One million percent recommend him to anyone looking for video work!